Its such a small world.....
I mean even over the internet you can pretty much keep tabs on the lives of others, wether you really want to or not.....
I mean yeah, I read your journals....
when you post them...
I mean you post like at least 3 or more in a week....
and i do have a fishy feeling you may just do the same...
its funny, after all this time you would think people change....
grow...
into the butterflies you knew they could be...
or maybe hoped...
holding them with all the admiration possible..
simply because you loved them so greatly.....
but for some reason or another grew apart....
Maybe when you can stop making judments and faults accusations, you can stop living in this fairytale you like to title "pleasantville" and live your own life letting others just be.....
I mean you do have to be pretty unhappy with your life to constantly be judging someone....
and you know maybe sometimes what you think does happen to be accurate...
but accuracy doesnt make it ok to judge one onther...
"ALL IS ONE"
I hope someday you can see that....
life isnt a chess game...
you cant choose black....
or white....
live YOUR life....
and stop living vicariously through the lives of others...
once you can do that, i think you might just be able to live your own life....
and grow into the mazing person i know you could be....
with or without all the people you left behind....